A few weeks ago, I set out for an early morning shoot at Iroquois Steeplechase. Driving in the dark to the location, I felt as if the rest of the world was still fast asleep and I was the only person awake. How has that been my first real time driving somewhere to experience the perfect view of Gods promise of new beginnings and hope for another day?
For a moment, I was disappointed in myself for never taking the time to really be present and marvel in the simple beauty. The simple beauty of “alone time” in complete silence. I was free of any worries which made this experience give me immediate peace. I felt that I had found answers to something that my heart had been missing and wanting.
My heart was yearning for more experiences, patience and true connection. Things I knew were missing but could not pinpoint the words to describe exactly what I needed. These were things that I had no idea how to find, until that morning, with THAT sunrise!
Maybe because I felt that my “alone time” was taking Shiloh to the park, working on my phone, or watching Ellen. I used this “alone time” as an excuse to distract myself from what my mind, body and heart was actually seeking.
“The sunrise, of course, doesn’t care if we watch it or not. It will continue to be beautiful, even if no one bothers to look at it.”
Realizing that although I live my life as a blogger and influencer, I don’t have to post every beautiful moment to share with the world. I realized not focusing on capturing the sunrise through my phone screen I would in fact create a more connected and real experience. Such a vivid memory that I could write this post with clarity. This moment was in fact mine to hold and share with the world when I was ready. Which brings me to my realizations from this specific morning, those three things that I knew my heart was wanting and needing.
Through patience, experiences, and connection I know I can change how my life moves and happens day to day. When I am busy, overwhelmed, and anxious, patience will step up and remind me about that sunset I watched rise over the hills. About how in that moment, I felt so small but knew I was created to make an impact on the lives of others. When I am rushing from place to place, experience will come into my head and I will be reminded of the thought that you can’t enjoy and experience life correctly if everything is being rushed. True connections will come from relating to everyone on a level that allows relationships to be formed and maintained.
By reminding myself of that morning, watching the sun slowly rise over the hills and the personal time I had to reflect on what my heart was needing more of, I think of a new page. Each and every sunrise is like a new page, a chance to right ourselves’ and receive each day in all of its glory. Every day is a new wonder to explore and create as our own. Find a way to watch the sunrise one morning, enjoy being the only one awake while the rest of the world is still asleep. Find your new beginning each and every day, that is why God created sunrises, to start each day as a new beginning. What is your heart needing and wanting right now?